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Cheating

I was in a year relationship off and on. I thought when we first started talking he was a really nice guy and I loved his personality. I told him how I had just gotten out of a serious relationship and it was a abusive just completly twisted relationship and we had lived together for a while and didnt want to be in a relationship but, he made it clear he wanted me and didnt care and wouldnt stop til he got me. So I eventually after hanging out alot gave in to talking. after about 2 months of talking he asked me to be his gf when I was really drunk after we had coinsidently seen my ex at a bar and I said yes when I shouldnt have. So the next day I broke it off with him and my ex wanted me back… I went back like an idiot because I still loved him. Then that only lasted 2 months and we ended, it was the same. Then the guy was talking to for those 2 months still wanted to hangout and tried talking to me throughout the whole thing so I ended up hanging out with him again. We started talking and pretty much really shortly after became exclusive. He told me he was sad the whole 2 months we didnt talk after I ended it with him and that he didnt even do crap and didnt care about other girls. Anyways to make a long story short he was lying and screwed all these girls those 2 months and went to clubs constantly. When we got back together and I would come over when he was having get togethers he would invite me over and invite the girls he was screwing over those 2 months and I had no idea. I remember seeing a girl cry and I later on found out she was crying because he was all about me and didnt see why she was there and I was and was hurt that someone would do that. Basically I trusted him in the begining but as I started realizing more about him and noticed lies he was telling the trust stopped pretty quickly. after about 6 months in I was told by his best friend/roomate he wasnt really who I thought he was and that he was prob the biggest man whore that he knew and told me some stuff I had no idea about. Really put a toll on the relationship but, I stayed with him. Shortly after I was told by a random girls fb that victor had cheated on me but didnt tell me and facts. He said it was all bs and I beleived him. Then we fought alot and it became really hard and starting breaking up and getting back together. After we had gotten back together and were actually doing really good I was told by an Accuintance I had met through him that he did cheat on me and with many chicks. I told him and he denyed it all said he was lying and just wanted to get with me. I stupidly beleived him. We started fighting again and were off and on for a little. Then were good for months after that. I finally realized he was far from someone i would want to be with and all my friends and family especially hated him. I broke up with him on January 1st. Come to find out 3 weeks after the break up I was told by an extremly reasonable source that he cheated on me throughout the whole relationship with reallly trashy slutty girls. Also when we would break up for like 2 days he would go screw girls and openly talk about screwing girls in front of people throughout our relationship. I feel SOO betrayed and hurt and angry. I just cant seem to imagine how someone can be so fucked in the head. Everytime we would get back together it was because he would beg for me back. WHY!? You never cared about me obviously. Thats sick in the head to do that to someone. My heart hurts because it made me feel so worthless. I KNOW im NOT but still it sucks. It has made me stronger and now I can only move on and realize how pathetic he is.